The Fat Lady, The Phoenix, and Me.

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Still in fetal position, trying to untangle my mind, making a list of things to sell so we can still pay the home health aide so desperately needed, while simultaneously having to rewind the justice clock. (The fat lady has yet to sing as my adversary has filed yet another motion, this time saying the Appellate Court got it all wrong, not due to any misinterpretation of law or ignorance of fact, but solely because she has declared it so.) Can’t say that one took me by surprise, though.

I am so, so, tired of having to expend what little energy I have and what little time I have left, trying to fend off the constant barrage of spit-balls, cannon balls, and cow pies that certain people seem to delight in flinging my way. I have wasted too much of my life trying to understand them, trying to please them, trying to flee from them, trying to be loved by them. But I realize now it has always been a losing battle, for reasons that know no logic. I really believed that I had finally become immune to this kind of hurt but know now that I am not. I cannot change the facts. I cannot change others. What the hell took me so long to see that? My psychologist tells me the answer to that question is that I am just too good and honest and make the mistake of assuming everyone else is, too. While I appreciate the compliment to my character, if his analysis is right, it just seems so sad.

But despite all the sadness, I am proud of the person I chose to be and despite all the tears, have no regrets. So stick with me my friends, as my job now is to remind myself who I am and who are my real friends and family, and to teach myself once again how to fly with the Eagles, as this Phoenix shall rise again!

And now, some silly little images I made to cheer myself up, perhaps more suitable for a 6-year-old girl, but as I never really got a chance to be a kid when I actually was one, I am giving myself the chance now to make up for lost time. Enjoy!

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Bogus Bogey Boogies Tonight!

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Black and White film have always been my favorites. For some reason, they seem to pull me into their movie world so that I feel apart of the scene and able to gaze out beyond the cameras scope and glimpse what lies beyond. The lighting of the old black and white films from the 1930′s-1950′s seems far more dramatic to me and far more effective at focusing my attention to the screen. But my son grew up in the era of color: color television, color computer monitors, color video games, color photographs and color movies. When Rob was a young child, I had created a number of games for him to play using HyperCard (a nifty little application that came installed on the early Mac’s.) My monitor in those days was grayscale (which I thought was the greatest thing – so much more exciting than the 1-bit monitors that PC/DOS users were stuck with) – but it wasn’t color like our TV, so like any other red-blood American kid in the late 1980′s, Rob just could not understand why I spent so much time creating games that had no color and fairly crude animation as compared to the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on VHS. So I tried to keep my enthusiasm to myself and shifted my attention to things other than designing games on my trusty MacPlus.

Zoom ahead a decade now and perhaps you can imagine my delight when Rob came home after his first year at college and was going on and on about these great movies he had discovered by the director, Alfred HItchcock, which were in black & white! Well, that opened up the floodgates for Hubby and I to introduce our newly enlightened prodigal son to all of our favorite films, like Citizen Kane, Metropolis, The 5,000 Fingers of Dr. Terwilliger, and of course, all the great Humphrey Bogart films like “The Treasure of the Sierra Madre”,”The Maltese Falcon”,”Petrified Forest”, and “Casablanca”. Although those films are 50-75 years old now, they still hold up due to the superb art direction, lighting, writing, directing, and acting,

High-Definition and even 3-D television and movies, as cool as those are, seem like an entirely different medium as compared to the old B&W classics. If you’re too young to remember the “old days” and haven’t yet discovered these on DVD or Blu-Ray, make yourself a bucket of popcorn, turn all the lights out, and switch on Turner Classics on the next rainy afternoon and tell me what you think. Am I right?

Ironically, after all that rambling about the glories of black and white, I have for you tonight some experimental artwork I created inspired by a still-shot of Humphrey Bogart - in color! (The devil made me do it.) ;-)

Enjoy!

*Note: If you follow the link above for “The 5,000 Fingers of Dr. Terwilliger” there are a few video clips there of the film, and you’ll probably wonder what the heck’s wrong with me because those clips are in Technicolor. True enough. But just like in the 1939 Judy Garland classic, “The Wizard of Oz”, was B&W for all the scenes taking place in Kansas while Oz and Munchkinland were in color, so too does Dr. T intertwine both black and white scenes in among those in color.

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Rx: Silliness & Laughter Daily

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My friend, “Dogkisses” has once again inspired me as a result of one of her comments to a prior post. This time, her comments led me to create images that purely stand for a bit of silliness and fun. Included in tonight’s offering, you’ll find my very own “daughter”, Lamb-Patty, as the camera caught her in her first solo flight. I think Shari Lewis, who first brought her Lamb Chop puppet to life and into our hearts so many years ago, would approve. To give the remaining credits where due, I offer thanks to Jim Henson for his irrepressible Kermit the Frog whom I’ve depicted in his very own race car.

Enjoy!

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